My wife’s health has taken a turn for the worse and making her life the best it can be is my primary goal. I still want to work on my films and stories.
My feelings about my work are conflicted. On one hand, I feel like any work I do takes time and effort away from my wife. On the other hand, I feel it is important to have a focus on positive things. I do gain satisfaction from my work that I believe will give me more strength when my wife needs it. Nevertheless, I still feel guilty when I work on my projects.
I have decided that I will try to do some work on my projects. Naturally, with my main focus on my wife, I will need to interrupt my projects frequently. I will have to choose my projects carefully, so that they are projects I can drop and pick up again. I already have many unfinished projects.
Many artists use the trials in their lives as fodder for their work. I can’t do that now; maybe I never will. My post last week generated a higher than normal level of interest, so maybe I can take direction from that.
The important thing is to seek happiness and contentment as much as we can. In the past when I had troubled times I used to say to myself, “Find an excuse to be happy everyday, even if it was only for a minute.”